okay ... so i know i said i didn't wanna blog until everything simmered down, but it don't look like that's about to happen anytime soon ... so lemme juss keep you up to date then ... so last week i printed out resumes, filled up applications, handed em all in, and i even enrolled in Milliken Mills High School, Night School, for my math course ... by thursday, i had an interview at Guess? ... tho it didn't go so well, i assume i must've been half drunk that day or something, in any case; next morning i woke up to the horrible news that my night school was cancelled ... the day didn't go so smoothly after that ... ppl went to the university fair, watched 'spirited away' w/o me, *sniffz*, the video seminar was pointless, couldn't get picked up after tkd ... fortunately for me however; "Nolite te bastardes carborundorum" ... it was better that i didn't go to the fair or movie anyways, at least i got part of a unit for the seminar, my instructor gave me a drive home, and most of all, i enrolled into Mother Theresa night school at the last minute ...
that day was a miracle, but what was more of a miracle, was the second job interview of the week, w/ Gap ... i seriously thought i didn't make it, but i did, how crazy is that? ... and no, i don't think i can get you discounts, but gimme some money and i might buy you a b-day present w/ my discount ...
now that made my week! ... but here's the sprinkling on the ice cream, night school math is too easy, the teacher is too nice, and having no home work is juss too good!
funny thing however, with all these fortunate happenstances, i feel very blessed, but i've also grown a slight paranoia ... i've seen good things come and abruptly go away; what lifts you up, i've learnt, can only hold your weight for soo long ... so i realize that if i'm fortunate enough to be lifted up, i'll have to work my hardest to keep myself up there ...
heh, funny thing too, i'm taking world history - 16th century now ... tho i'm not sure if that's a good thing of bad thing ...
on a different topic, if i were to quote one of the lesser noticed geniuses of our time ... "life and time, do *indeed* go in circles" ... an incident happened this week, involving two of my closest friends, a ride of emotions, and if i were to liken it to a rollercoaster, it would be too clichéd, however it's the best way to describe it ... other clichés come to mind as well: 'walking in the rain', 'love is just a battlefield', and 'you hurt the ones you love', are just some of them ...
to clarify exactly what happened: personA was feeling a bit lonely, so she felt that she needed some one ((and c'mon, most of us hav felt that way before)), but in doing so, gave the wrong impression on personJ, and he got his hopes up, but when she blew him off, it hurt ... but if you seriously look back at the events of last year, this is almost the exact same thing of what happened twice ...
this week, ppl were taking sides ... it was apparently very intense, tears were shed on both sides, and i, usually the one to sink myself chin-deep into these things, wasn't very affected ... however, i saw most of this coming a mile away ... i believe i have a good idea of what ppl do, say, think and feel, tho i'm not bragging about it, but i've had way too much experience in it ... i've been on both sides of that stick, more times than i can count ... actually i can count; twice on both sides ... in the span of one year ... with three of the more important girls in my life ... but, let's nevermind about that, heheh ... ((or was it three or four in my entire life? ... hmm, nm))
if there's one thing i hope both these ppl learn, it's that ppl have needs, especially during adolesence, our transition into adulthood and maturity ... but you can't blame them for these needs, sometimes ppl juss need someone to hold and/or hold on to ... remember we're still learning what maturity really is, NONE of us are anywhere close to that yet ... be it a relative term or not ... and honestly, in my opinion, if you're reading this, wrote something similar, or involved in it in any way - you're not mature yet ...
to end this off, let me just say this: you're all fucking hypocrites ... you get mad at ppl when they do it, but you did the exact same thing ... and as for the ppl indirectly involved who are taking sides, don't you dare talk unless you've been on BOTH sides of the shit-feeder ... you don't know how much it hurts when it happens to you, and you don't know how confused the ppl are who did it
*sighz* ... well that's it ... good night, leave me alone, this was not a good way to end my week ...
*still anxious for my first day at the Gap*
